I don't like how who I'm becoming

I'm mostly a neet work full time. But I don't leave my house, don't indulge in most things normies like. Only thing I do is watch some sports and play video games. But I'm starting to feel darkness within me. I know this is reddit and not a place for therapy. But neets how do you stay calm and peaceful while isolated? I'm always feeling negative and like a dreadful feeling like a hare the world. I just want to live peaceful and maybe have some peaceful hobbies. But am always feeling negative. I know a lot of neets aren't religious but that's what I think I need to do because I don't think I can help myself without God.