Half wish I could be a neet (rant)

Not really interested in being a Neet, in fact I'm sure that when all is said and done i would dislike that kind of life; but rn i just hate my job lol. I just need the money, I wish everyone understood that. I don't come to work together "be anyone's friend" and just because I'm nice to you doesn't mean I'm interested in connecting with you. Im also mad at myself a bit tho, there's a way to be calm cool and polite without people thinking you want to be more then colleagues I always work myself up and end up going a little overboard with the kindness