Looking back, I'm glad I didn't kill myself: I was there when my aging pet needed me

My dog was recently euthanized, and before that was getting on some medication to prolong and improve his life. Looking back, my help with taking care of the dog while my family was away was invaluable. We loved him dearly, but he needed quite a bit of attention and me being there gave my family some breathing room with going out of the house and just like that we helped each other out so someone could stay while the other left. Now imagine all the extra workload of me not being there to help because I killed myself earlier. Now the euthanizing part: I never expected to feel so emotional in my entire life, no matter how much I prepared for it mentally. It was the first time I lost someone that was so very near and dear to me. Not only that, but seeing my family cry as well was actually very surreal to me, because I usually don't see that side of theirs. They have since then expressed deep gratitude with me being there and helping out. Now imagine if I wasn't there for the dog during his last precious moments and my family crying the same way at my supposed funeral before then. I used to think my family would've given no shit about my death, and perhaps I'm lucky to have a loving family but seeing my dog pass away in front of me like that changed me and made me truly realize how they would've reacted to my passing. Depression and isolation can really warp your brain sometimes. Not trying to dismiss everyone's suffering and suicidal thoughts, but at least in my case I lucked out enough to survive long enough to have better times and approved neetbux. Just wanted to share my perspective. Take good care of you pets and get an insurance for them <3