i'm turning 24 in a few days and ive never worked a single day in my life, i'm trying to change.

ive been a neet since 2019 after getting my high school diploma i went to university to do something that has nothing to do with my field of work i immediatly ragequited after 2 days then covid started and i did nothing for 2 years. after this i was depressed and thought that it was "too late" now looking back i was still so young. my parents are already old ( they got me late) i want to take care of them they've been way to cool with me my father only asked me to look for a job once and my mother 3 time.....and its only because she got badly sick i dont deserve my parents im sure just seeing me working will make them super happy and because i live in their house i could just stack up all the money lol. i never even tried to look for a job probably because of this horrible feeling of social anxiety (im so pathetic... everyone here seems to have worked at least once) i dont have any addiction and im healthy never smoked or drinked in my life, i workout in my room a few time every week. im trying to supress my suicidal thoughts its going well i believe. the other day i made a cv (full of fake xp to cover that gap lmao 🤣) and applied to some shit job's on indeed i guess that's a start. if im not getting any jobs i'll have to ask my local job agency to get formed in a job like electrician soldering securty ect.... (its paid by the region for jobless people like me) (im from france btw) but ive been too anxious all of those years to ask for help. just wanted to share this with you cuz i have no friends and i believe its always good to see some positivity 😎 i taged this post as succes but im a loser haha 🤡