My life story for anybody who cares

Hello I am Sai. I am originally from Hyderabad but currently in USA searching for jobs after my Master's degree. My life has always been shit. Never had luck, and I had to work 3x harder than anyone to get the same opportunity. I lost my mother who was my best friend when I was just 11. I was the one who found her hanging from a fan when I came back from my first day of school. I couldn't even comprehend what suicide was and why do people even kill themselves. My mother struggled a lot, she always complained of pain in the abdomen and my father took her to the best hospitals that he could, splent lakhs of rupees on tests but all the tests came back with no issues. I didn't know my mother was struggling mentally back then, I did not even know what depression was, so how would I know what my mother was going through? My dad quickly remarried and thats when hell started for me, my step mom was abusive and always ready for a verbal fight. My dad was supportive and always took my side, but it went really bad in 2019. That is when she accused me of plotting a plan to kill her with the help of my aunts. I could not believe it. I escaped from home and stayed in a hostel. But I got stuck with her again when the pandemic started. Faced hell from 2 years until 2022. I graduated with bachelors degree in 2022. Got a good job and worked there for 1.5 years before coming to USA to do masters degree. I did not want to put burden on my parents so I chose a university that gave me full scholarship and a graduate assistant role to cover for my expenses as well. So basically the degree was free. What more can anyone ask for, right? I felt that it was god saying to me that, my son, your worst phase of life is over, now its time to live independently and peacefully. So, I packed my bags and landed here. Everything was great until it got to the time where I had to find a job. I started my job search in August 2024, applied to 2000+ jobs, took 10+ referrals but all went into vain. I got 2 callbacks which rejected me after phone screening. Apparently nobody is willing to sponsor me for the role so they cant hire me. What a joke! So yeah, feeling really low right now. All my friends joined consultancies and all of them are putting fake experiences like 8+ years and saying they have h1b or green card to the clients and basically creating an entirely fake persona for them. I am unable to understand how people are joining those consultancies because what if you get caught? Trump administration has started and he is very strict and if they get caught, then its over for them. I cant risk my future by joining those things. So, what more can i do to get a job? only god knows! I cant stay here in US because i don't have any savings and a job but cant go back to India because its going to be hell for me again. Fuck what is my life man, everything that can go wrong is going wrong for me right now. I am having suicidal thoughts and getting dreams where i am jumping off a bridge every night. I don't know where i will be in the next two months. So, any advice for me? and any comments to make me feel better will help because I really need that right now