Nothing is okay with my life, everything seems to end

It's been some days since I got out of this room maybe in fear that if I go out then i won't be able to eat something even if i want because i have 22 rs in my account, I'm an engineering college student living alone, parents provides me 5 thousand rs monthly 3 thousand for the rent of the room and remaining for the food, that I cook by myself, mess is expensive, can't ask for more, i know the condition of my home father works harder still doesn't earns good, and my college is govt but still it's expensive like in my first year we had to pay 1.5 lakh so it's expensive too I don't even have friends with whom I can spend my time, i had friends but I figured out one thing that all of them used me at some point and then left so now i don't have a single friend. Right now I'm thinking about one thing so for your info I'm a Btech student but i hate it I never wanted this i didn't even have any idea what i wanted so everyone decided for me and after preparing for jee I got into a govt college for my BTech, but i hate science somehow learnt to code but not very good in it, tried 100s of time to get a internship or atleast some work so that I can earn money maybe that can help my condition but couldn't find a single work or internship I hate this life, currently when I'm writing this, I'm crying, i have fever too, right now I'm feeling so worthless and helpless that i can't explain it's been 2 AM in the morning and I'm not able to sleep, want to quit this course but can't because no-one will understand and they have invested lakhs in this, it feels so worthless sometimes that i just want to quit everything and run away or just die but then i remembers that i have a family and for them i have to work Thank you for reading it to the end, i really mean it