Idk maybe an end

Hie, I'm 20 F, so-called an adult, but in reality, I'm just a sensitive, loser and a dumb. who is tryin to live but can't... a year ago, I was suicidal, but believing that bad days would end soon, I embraced everything. I thought life was getting better, but nothing changed—the same family problems, feeling like a burden to my parents sp.to my dad, and a bad friend-getting abandoned by them proves that. But now, I can't take it anymore..I'm a failure at everything..Idk what to do ..I'm totally helpless and i don't wanna see tomorrow..