I’m a failed trader.

I have been buying and trading bitcoin since 2016. I had met a day trader back then who was making so much money, and he taught me how to do it with crypto. Bitcoin was my obsession. It was so exciting and everyone thought I was crazy and that bitcoin was stupid. But my conviction was strong, and now all my friend think I’m sitting on a lot of money. I wish I had never met this guy. He introduced me to leverage trading which has made me so much money, but in the end left me with nothing. After years of commitment and countless hours, I know the Bitcoin chart by heart. what he didn’t teach me was risk reward, and my trading history has been a complete mess. I feel like im professional chart analyst with great skill, but suffering a gambling addiction. Im so disgusted with myself, with how many times I’ve made life changing money, and lost it time and time again. Perhaps this is a confession. I understand Bitcoin completely and conviction is all time highs. In my head I know I can make it all back, and this really is what fucks with my brain, because I feel like both an abuser and the abused. I know I should have bought and held. What I didn’t know, was trading is a losing game.