In search of a genuine therapist/psychiatrist

Suffering from depression and anxiety since the age of 15 (lockdown) now m 19 Reason is due to toxic family nature, traumatized childhood and being the eldest child in the family Currently at a stage where I am destroying my life n career and can't help it out. Can't even study properly(being a topper in school) Tried taking mental help visiting doctors in surat but never felt it worth I tried 3 different doctors in 4 years and see their responses 1) Says to take these medicines and just think positive..saying ki bs dawai khao sab thik ho jayega..I mean wtf 2) Even after understanding my whole case and feeling ki now I can be healed by this person, he started yelling at me that why don't u study hard, your age is to study and shit 3) Whenever I say incidents of my parents he completely cancels it saying maa baap bhagwan ke samaan hote hai they always think good for you , don't even heard why I came for help So basically till now I received guidance from this doctors which a normal uncle gaves u on road for free, Totally not accepting that yeah home is peace but not for everyone..I mean mental health is still a taboo in country limited people to help, still they use this field just to earn money or what? I even ask some past patients which visits them and I am shock to hear that they had literally 20 appointments yet, thousands of money spent still it wasn't worth I am in search of a person who understands what I am suffering through, understand that yes I am a patient and bring the fuck out me of this, I will totally cooperate but in my life the only thing missing is understanding me which eats me out Please I am in urgent help of a genuine therapist, your response would be appreciated.