Bidding goodbye to trading.

I'm 26, working as a software developer. I don't have much money saved. I don't have any money from my parents. But I have several financial problems. I have first hand seen the market turn lives around for the better. I had come with much hopes. I always knew there are risks but often you don't realise the seriousness of it till it's bitten you. I used to be vary of it, only did equities, that too in smaller volumes. It gave me much confidence even when I made 1-2k. I started fno near the end of November. I was profitable, +1 lakhs. I had several plans. Pay off debters, renovate home, but a few books. Right now I stand at a loss exceeding 1.5 lakhs. That's 5 months my of savings. If I don't stop, I might be able to recover the amount, but the risk is far too great for me. Thanks, but it wasn't meant to be.