Reply to my previous post

I had made a post 2 days back on how I was constantly thinking about pain . I thought that I would be mocked due to my weird condition but I was overwhelmed at the positive responses . Although not fully recovered from it , I am a lot better today than what I was 2 days back . Thanks a lot and even one or two noble men wanted to offer money for psychiatrist. In addition to it , i live away from home without any real connection here . I got no friends , all I had distant friends just ghosted me . I feel so lonely . But 2-3 movies have made my mood feel better . I now blame myself for the fact that most guys just term me boring as i use very less curses ( I am considered uncool therefore)and also very inclined towards physics . So I am preparing for IISER. But they just used me when they needed and it feels terrible . At last , if anyone wants to help regarding my loneliness which has been cause of anxiety as i continue blaming myself for it , it will be highly appreciated