Just wanted to rant and pour my heart out

Lucky are u guys who have atleast had female friends in our life but I didn't. In my school I didn't used to talk to people was very focussed it went by. Then in cllg also never interacted much with people because I was day scholar and focussed on placements. Then got placed at a good company with decent package but in my team no women was there. I don't drink or smoke so never went to clubs. I don't know how to casually talk to people but I have always seen I know more than people around on any topic because my mind is very fast. At times I feel too lonely and unhappy that atleast I could have a female friend because I never talked my heart out to any women other than family members. Over the top I have become quite fragile but deep down there is lots of sadness and unhappiness due to which I cannot find interest in things now. I'm at par in terms of education and career because I work in a sector which is in quite demand rn. I should be proud of myself no cuz my hardwork paid off but I'm not happy and even cry at times. I just feel I could feel happy someday but nowadays i feel very sad and down.