Help me feeling depressed

I have no single friend and anyone dont even consider me her/his best friend Evryone uses me as second someone joh bas sahara dene ke liye rhe unke sath My problem is that is have no social skill i get social anxiety in public.i dont use my phone in college due to shyness ya anxiety kya bole kya condition hai mujai Bas jinda jee raha hu Shayad maira weird name bhi mujai bahot psychologically impact dala hai maire social behavior or introvert mai no one understand my name 5baar bolne ke baad samjhte hai koi bhi banda .yeh chiz or anxiety deti kahi pai professor ya koi maira name na puchle bta hi nhi pata or bahot wierd bhi hai maira naam bahot impact kar thoda mujai Depression sai bahot lag rha hai Koi nhi hai maira is college sab benefits ke liye use kar rhe hai mujai Bas kaise yeh 2028 tak yeh college survive karuga😭😭😭 Thank you if u have read my post of a guy who has zero blank personality 😭😭 Thak gya hu bas 😭😭😭 Ab bata bhi nhi sakta kisi ko koi puchne wla nhi hai ya koi batane wla nhi hai Porn and mastubation addiction bhi hai 😭😭