What’s your everyday life like?

For me it’s all kinda the same. I’m trying to get on a more consistent/productive routine but I usually don’t have much to do. I usually wake up around noon on most days. After waking up, I will immediately doom scroll for about an hour until I feel like I should be getting up to start my day. Then, I will proceed to take a shower and get dressed for the gym. I don’t particularly enjoy the gym, but it does make me feel somewhat productive so it’s an empty hobby of mine that I try to do 5 times a week. After the gym I’ll usually try to make something to eat depending on how hungry I am. Most nights I usually just drive around aimlessly while listening to music that helps ease my suicidal thoughts. I often call suicide hotline but that’s not m everyday thing.. just depends how heavy my mood is. I used to cope with playing video games at night but every game is just so boring . My goal is to hopefully get a job but I don’t see place would ever hire me. Time and youth is certainly not in my favor being 26 as well