Thought that I made a friend. But I got ghosted.

I was supposed to meet this person on 9 pm in a specific location. We were supposed to go to a bar. I was there on 8:45. I waited until 9:45. The person never showed up. Didn't even send a message. I am supposed to believe that life is worth living. I am supposed to believe that happiness is possible if you "try" hard enough. My death cannot come soon enough. I have NEVER been happy in my life. Don't even know what happiness feels like. People always treated me like crap. The worst part, however, was the fact that I always failed when I tried to get friends and/or a romantic partner. Fuck everyone who says that life is worth living because of crap like money and expensive stuff. All of them have friends who lick their asses on a daily basis. I genuinely hope that I will die soon.