Let's put an end point on that clock

i guess i have 2 years left , i don't see the point of keeping this nightmare on track if i pass 28. Been there since i'm 16 tried everything , even had an huge chance to change everything but ended up fucking my life even deeper. Each years have been more painful. I don't know i want to laught at this shit it's a fucking circus where i'm the only spectator sitting in the middle crying while this psicopath clown dance around me. Well i can't even cry how funny is that , i don't even have the right to break at least once always at the verge where the lucidity allow the pain to be at her peak. I'm done 2 years is enought , if nothing have changed there , it will never.