If life is a game i don't want to play

i hate this boring ass game. it's all about going to school and working until you can't no more just for piece of toilet paper, nowadays it's literally a digital number on a screen. I swear to god most of the problems i am dealing with in life is money. I can't get job either, i am not going to retype why again (you can check my post history for more info about my situation). the truth is i don't care about chasing money or fitting in with a bunch of apes on a fucking space rock. i just want to live comfortable and enjoy my hobbies, and yes i well aware we have to do things 99% time we don't like doing. why can't i live in fictional world instead. it makes total sense why people maladaptive dream a lot, our imagination are better than reality. job hunting is like a lottery. fuck me. i wanna go fuck myself if i can't get a entry job. i am so behind my peers. it's over right at the beginning. the game is rigged.