I tried again and failed

I'm still stuck in neetdom. I was told that I needed to get back up and try again after fucking up my first job. I did. I fucked up again. Tried to get back to the workforce... Nothing. No one wants to hire me, and I have no marketable skills. I'm fucked It's been almost 5 years and finally admitting that to myself feel like a kick in the teeth. At first, it didn't matter because I wasn't going to live much longer anyway. Now that I actually want to try, I can't do a damn thing and I can't end it either because funerals cost too much. I'm in fucking purgatory