I still have a naive dream

I'm (29M) NEET for one and a half years. I used to work in the corporate sphere until my psychosis or most likely schizophrenia took the best of me. Being NEET has it's pro's and cons, it's nice that you don't have the hectic life but it's existence is pretty bleak to me. All in all, I have the naive dream to go back to working fulltime, meet a gf (I'm not ugly or social incompetent) and thinking about having a kid. Unfortunately I have illnesses and would not like to bring a kid in the world being affected by it. The (survival and) replication part of the gene hits stronger when getting older. Not due to societal pressures but due to maturing. I understand the implications of possible future job loss and difficulties of my illnesses, in regards to divorce and not seing the kid. Just wanted to vent a bit.