Have you given up on finding a relationship?

I myself have, being a NEET and all it can feel impossible to find someone compatible. I have too many mental problems and can’t leave the house. Even if I do, I have never been attractive to the opposite sex, and never had a chance growing up and doubt it would be any different now. I’m probably going to die single and alone. I’ll just become a monk or something. I’d still like to have a girlfriend or wife some day but I’m not holding my breath for it.