Got rejected for neetbux

I know most get rejected first time but even from the beginning I felt that I had no chance. I only have hand tremors, severe depression and anxiety. It's nothing compared to what others face. I can't afford seeing help to get possibly diagnosed with ADHD & or other stuff I believe I suffer from. Feels like it's not even worth challenging with an attorney. I can't get neetbux to pay off my debt which u stupidly built up. The thought of working is worse than the idea of just giving up and dying. I suck at the only thing I like, art and don't think I'll ever make money from it. 30 this year and despite being happy I can be a neet, I know it's a drain on family. fuck.