Any Real Hikikomori Neets out there?

It's all out of my hands, I give up. People will give you useless advice and invalidate all your problems and deem you an annoyance. They want us gone, they're truly evil people. The world is not a nice place, I am trapped in my room because I lost the will to do ANYTHING. And yet, people gaslight you to work even though I am completely disabled. They want us to needlessly suffer. They love to see us suffer. Life is naturally harder for me and I can hardly do anything. I wanted to have friends but nobody ever lived like I did and so I end up hurting myself further. Nobody wants to talk to me or be my friend because I am ugly, unhygenic, dumb, schizophrenic, poverty, virgin, a weirdo, nymphomaniac, and suicidal neet. How hard is it to be honest? To realize that you were never a hikikomori because you have a partner, have a pet, have any job or work or side hustle, generate any income, go outside for anything, and have friends or are not a fellow bro? As a neet, I don't want female friends but I want guy friends. If a neet guy has a girlfriend or is attractive, I consider him a normie. No way we can ever be friends at that point. I wish I wasn't such a needy friend, but I've never had a friend, so I become obsessed. Atleast I can enjoy porn at my leisure as a neet. I don't particularly care if people get mad if I look at hot models online. I will never have sex because I'm poor and a hikikomori neet. At the end of my miserable day, porn makes me feel more of a failure. If you're a REAL hikikomori and neet, it would be cool because that means we can both rot away. Nobody will ever know or care that I exist and soon I expect to fade away. NO. I. WILL. NOT. GET. BETTER. It never does.