Why I'm doomer neet

There is no future, why pretend? In the end, I will exit by my own admission. I don't expect to live past 30. Turning 25 this year, society is unforgiving since I've contributed nothing. Still, it is forever society's obligation to help neets and disadvantaged people. If they were us, they'd understand. I am sick, but there's no help. When I take my last breath and my soul escapes my body, I will think of being free and disappointed in humanity. How can I keep living in a world that despises and dismisses my very existence? Either way I'd lose. Society will say it is our fault and belittle and laugh at our misfortunes. But, it was never our fault in this flawed system. No skills or no titles will help when I'm forever unwell enough to engage with society. There is no sympathy, no empathy, no nothing to be expected. I've never had friends, internet people disappear on a whim. I'm a very forever alone hikikomori neet! I have a bucket list, I wish for a long time to have experienced to be in a relationship even if I'm a hikikomori neet. I've never had a warm hug or close relationship with another person. I would even consider men! But it seems no men would want me either when I asked a few straight neet men and some gay neet men. Their loss I suppose.