Thinking back on last year

I spent months going back and forth doing the bare minimum to applying to my first job and working for my parents business when I got tired of it until I finnally came across a job I managed to stay for just 1 day until I realized I straight up couldn't physically do it as it was a kitchen job and I was put on one of the busier days just chopping away left out there as my actual trainer came in alot later and so I quit the next day. Then a couple months later I got desperate again not because I need the money but my parents put the pressure on me and i caved but what was available once again was another kitchen job at a different restaraunt this one vegan focused I actually lasted longer this time but still just a couple of weeks before I couldn't ignore how badly my shoulder hurt from all the chopping and quit and the last couple of shifts I was really on the verge of tears sometimes during work. So I eventually quit- this time a little sadder considering I actually liked the people there a bit and the manager was understanding and well I fucked up my shoulder a little bit to the point where its uncomfortable to walk after an hour or two or carry things for more than 10 minutes. Now I'm right back where I started and I feel so ashamed. I dont have any irl friends because I fell out with alot of them from some drama at the end of highschool and the online friends I do have we dont share to much with and just send funny things to eachother. The only actual interests I have is art and video games, I've never really enjoyed a moment from work all it did was make me feel a little more normal yet still feel so out of place as I looked on at everyone's stressed faces and hearing the complaints under people's breaths and wondering when it would all be over for it to only repeat. My personal plan from the start was to get an easy physical job where I wouldnt have to interact too much with people and eventually make my way through the world- now I really have no idea where to go from here I love art and games but I have my doubts if I could do anything with that.