I've been a NEET for nearly a year and my brother is starting to absolutely hate me

I haven't really been a NEET by choice, just went through most of last year feeling pretty depressed and despondent, not knowing what to do and where to go with myself. I have personal issues I don't know how to address and in that I have lost my sense of just being a normal in the world person. Like I just don't really feel human anymore. There are moments of joy and elation at being alive, usually when I'm in nature or praying but I feel like a total failure when it comes to just being a normal person. My parents have gone through a rough time recently and my dad had to ask my older brother for a meagre 100$ loan. He lives 40 minutes from us and besides this small loan my family doesn't bother him at all. This transaction caused my brother to snap and unleash all this pent up rage on me. How my parents are failures for the way they've raised me, he climbed into me for being so far behind in life and how much of a failure I am. In all honesty, his words never struck me for the truth but more so their absurdity. I've been out of work for a year and I'm so far behind in life, who am I racing against?? He sure as hell seems bitterly unhappy. Most wagies seem unhappy. It's so weird that me not having work has disqualified me as a human being in his eyes. I'll get work again, life will carry on. But the veil lifting and my brother turning on me is not something I'll forget very soon. I'm angry and annoyed about it, if my brother was in a bad place my first reaction wouldn't be seething hatred. What a motherfucker that your value as a human being is determined by how successful you are in this dog eat dog world. Materialism is for suckers and the hard truth of life is that you'll only truly met a handful of people who'll ever understand and care for you, the rest are just in it for themselves.