I'm still trying but deep down I know it's over

(23M, visibly autistic, crippling social anxiety, semi-mute, no passion) Over the past semester, I’ve been consistently showing up to class, reaching out to a few opportunities that led to an internship for the spring, and occasionally tried doing things independently. In the end, though, I think it is too late. Even though I wanted to and had nothing else to do I still sometimes could not force myself to go into class. The fear of the outside world and exposure to people was just too much sometimes. Also, the internship is through my university, it might be unpaid, and I think it’s handed out to anyone who wants it. I had ambitions of trying to do all the errands for the house, but I only managed to go to the dentist by myself and occasionally get pickup orders by myself. Showing up to school left me too drained to do much else independently. My dad has been encouraging me to get a tech job with the state. He worked for the state for his entire career so perhaps he knows how low the standards are and thinks I might have a chance there. If getting a CS degree ultimately goes to waste, I’m sure I will be able to get some low-skill entirely level job. There's also the option of trying to leach indefinitely but if my parents semi-force me to get a job I think I won’t have a strong enough resolve and will quickly give in. So, in about 6 months, I'll have to face the music and become a Wagie likely as a dishwasher, warehouse worker, retail worker, or something similar. When I worked jobs in the past, I was always scared to come in every day until I quit. However, I think, with enough time, I will acclimate to working and won’t be scared anymore.