I hate that if you dont want to be treated a subhuman in Brazil, you have to do college

I hate that if you dont want to be treated a subhuman in Brazil, you have to do college This is whiny but I want to post somewhere so I feel less alone. I dont want to be that kind of person who just sucks up the US and I know the 'American Dream' is dead anyways, but I just want to have a simple life without feeling like im worthless because of my intelligence. I love my country besides all bad things but this really annoys me. I dont know if im considered an "NEET" because im stdying at home but I feel already hopeless because I know if I try again I will fail. Im 18 at the moment and since like you are 14, schools always keep pressuring you about the national exam, oh this falls on ENEM tst blah blah blah, and when it was finally my turn, I failed, I got a bad grade, around 645 and I chose to be placed on administration college but I didnt want to do it because thats not my thing. Actually, I never had a dream job either way, I just want to live an happy chill life, I dont plan on getting married and choose on my own will to be chaste, so a chill house with 1 bedroom is fine for me. I feel unworthy of even asking at a convent if they would accept me at religious life as a novice, and my parents wouldnt like that too besides them being hardcore Catholics. I am scared of failing again, because I am at my room, without friends, just having a little of hope to get in a better college next year, which I probably wont, and it makes me cry seeing all my childhood friends going to public colleges with amazing grades, going to a better state just to do public college, engineering, law school... And the worst part is that the brazilian upper-middleclass shames you if you even try to stdy at an private college because its "easy", just pay to win basically and you did nothing. I know I shouldnt care about what others say, but even companies will deny you depending on which college you went to. Sometimes I even wonder why my family decided that changing from the countryside to the urban hellhole would be better. Even if I get an degree, I would still get paid like crap unless I decide to be a doctor, which honestly, I dont think even if I stdy for 5 years I would get in. My parents gave me a "deadline", I have 3 years to get into med school, which I lied to them because deep down I dont know what to do... I dont even have good friends, my only friend is a girl who shames me for only getting into private college, shes never present when I need someone. I hopelessly watch movies on the cinema alone and see people with friends laughing and im just there, sure I learned to enjoy myself but it would be nice to have a friend. My week now is just stdy, go play videogames at night, might read something and the only time I get outside is sunday to go to mass, outside of that I casually go to the cinema alone. I dont know what to do and im desperate because I dont want a dream job, I dont even know what I like. I would like to maybe be a literature or portuguese teacher but I dont want to be treated like crap by my students and get paid minimum wage.... Besides, teachers here are just people who teach you tips and tricks on how to scre the ENEM questions.