few decades to early i think

the only thing that make me survive is to believe that at some point i would still be alive to live in a virtual world. At least one that feel a bit real , no human only ai. Feel the wind there, feel her hand , being mesmerise by irreal landscape. I don't ask to become an hero or else in those , just live , feel no pain , only relaxation for a moment , not those broken feelings from drugs , just the one from being in my place at least one minute. I'm scare to die before , i'm a larva and i smoke so chance aren't by my side but surviving thought that storm is worth i hope.