Being a “good girl” still lead me here

I did everything I was supposed to do get good grade. Obeyed my parents. I don’t lie, cheat, or steal. I don’t smoke, drink, or swear. All I heard was I could make it somewhere. Or that I was smart. I was nice. Seen my mother struggle went off to do what ever. I’m in college off of a scholarship. Did what I was supposed to do. Worked 3 jobs. Helped paid rent. Got into a relationship at the appropriate age I was told I can. Spent time with him. juggled school and work. Paying rent, buying food and clothes. Paying for my books brand new(because I didn’t know any better) left school, left the relationship, trying to go back to school dad fell sick left the STATE. Went and promised our family I’ll be with him for a year. Working conditions horrible. Corrupt city. Fighting to help my dad one year grew to two, then three … and every time from people looking I’m going to have such good karma. Everyone would want a daughter like me. I’m going to be a great wife. I’m going to be a great mother and yet. I’m dealing with the same job struggle as everyone else. Dealing with the whole loneliness epidemic as everyone else. Dealt with the PANdemic and all the inflation that came with it. I was financing people was able to keep everyone that needed me afloat. But what do I now have to show for it? I know college educated people that can’t find work. What job would bat an eye my way. People with degrees moving back HOME. My dad is down dependent in a way most people my age wouldn’t understand because people won’t deal with what I am dealing with until they hit their 50s. Not in Education,Employment or Training and yet my family needs me. I’m a caregiver and even though I want to walk away I can’t bring myself to do it. I do need inspiration. I need to see personally that there’s more than this. If I could only have a Cinderella moment. Just someone in the form of a prince (lol) a boss, a random tiktoker that goes into peoples homes (lmfao seriously they’re brave. Just a kind stranger that’ll let me tag along. To shadow, to see, is all I need. I genuinely thought if SW but I can’t bring myself to do it, I’m not desperate and I don’t hate life. I just want better, I know I can do better,I know I deserve better. I just have to connect. But how, and with whom? Ain’t life scary and exciting. (Or am I still being too naive?)