Am I the only person who has never been happy?

I have read many posts and replies on this subreddit. Basically everyone experienced happiness at some point. Some were happy in high school. Others were happy in middle school. I, on the other hand, don't even know what happiness feels like. What does it feel like to have a solid friend group? What does it feel like to live in a first world country that isn't inhabited by scum who torture you because of your sexual orientation? What does it feel like to actually love the world? It is possible that the next year will be better. I will try to move to the US. If that doesn't work out then I will kill myself. My misery will end either way. I am absolutely sick of everything in this world.