2year unemployed anti social girl just got heavily embarrassed on interview phone call

lol i applied for IT apprenticeship and my autistic ass got put on the spot and i was unable to bullshit my way through . he caught me out on a lie on my cv (i stated i built a pc ) i never have . in fact i have not done any IT work since college / high school. past year and half i have done nothing but doom scroll and isolate myself from the world and attend useless anti radicalization appointments (known as PREVENT in the UK) it was really embarrassing … he ended up asking me what do i think an IT internship entails… 2:33 seconds into the phone call i hung up . i could barely answer his questions , i wasn’t fluent in my answers , kept taking long pauses and repeating ‘erm’ … really really not good . it’s not even because im autistic , it’s simply because i don’t know the answers to what he asked i receive LCWRA and pip (enhanced ) so im not going to lose anything … i kind of had hope now my self esteem feels crushed again .. i am going to keep trying because im only 21 honestly i want to cry . i really screwed up my future by being so high inhib/ neurotic .. maybe there is something else i can do that is more beginner friendly … for people like me who are college dropouts with 0 experience that does NOT involve retail