My father is making me hates bikes!!

Not the bike or anything, trust me I had such a big smile when I was going to ride the bike but what I hate is MY FATHER HE IS SUCH A BAD TEACHER HE IS AGGRESSIVE on my first day I rode an extremely messed up road A very 'trafficky' road and what not. He was acting like i know how to ride a bike but I'm just acting that I don't, like dude I DON'T KNOW I'm new so ofcourse I'll have problems with brakes clutches etc And yk what I was doing fine until he sat behind me, the bike is already heavy for me and then he on that bad road and I still didn't fell anywhere But yk what's worse, HIS INSTRUCTIONS!!!! He said "side le" and our house alley was coming up so I took there then he suddenly said SEEEDHA LE AND SO I GOT CONFUSED Still didn't fell btw And then he in the whole traffic started cursing me sooooo loudly and like asking me do I have 20000 rupees to pay the bill of what not if I crash. I love bikes like i love them to my heart and I want to ride but he is making me hate it and I don't wanna start such a heartfelt hobby with such a bad line of experiences. I feel everytime I'll ride after learning it (if I learn from him) I'll always remember his curses out loud and my tight grip on accelerator coz I'm scared And I don't wanna do that so I have been telling him let's ride tomorrow or not today since the day (it was 3 days ago) And he now thinks I'm a scaredy cat!! AM I? Edit:- I don't have a friend in the city as I just moved in a couple of years ago and haven't really gotten a chance to make a friend so yea asking a friend to teach is out