Existential crisis - Need career advice

Hai, I am a 27M living in Kochi. Eldest son of my family. I completed my schooling from Kendriya Vidyalaya Ernakulam (CBSE) with 81% in Computer Science + Maths in the year 2015. EXILE - വനവാസം ================= Then joined BTECH in Computer Science in Mits Varikoli near Puthencruz via merit in KEAM entrance exam in 2015. We were the first batch of the then newly constituted KTU university (They experimented on us, learned, & then brought changes for upcoming batches. Not getting into the atrocities of the university. It's a long story by itself ). First year was good, secured 7.9 average in 2 semesters. Then the downfall started. "Oru Vadakkan Selfie " is literally my story, I am THE "UMESH", every line of the song "കൈകോട്ടും കണ്ടിട്ടില്ല.." was literally my life framed into lyrics. "ആശിച്ചു പെറ്റ മാതാവും.. ആശവറ്റിച്ചു വാഴും പിതാവും.. ഇവൻ നന്നാവും കാലം കിനാവു കണ്ടത് രണ്ടാം സെമസ്റ്ററിൽ തീർന്നു.. " is exact. Electronics, Mechanical based subjects screwed me up along with some theory subjects since i was not a fan of mugging-up. But I always scored near to 90% in maths, & good score in Programming as compared to other subjects. So after 4years, course ended in 2019, out of the total 14 subjects I failed during the 4 years, I was left with just 6 arrears (or the infamous സപ്ളി) to clear. Don't even think of attending campus placement with this status. (അതിന്റെ ഇടയിൽ workout ആവാതെപോയ ഒരു 2way പ്രണയവും കൂടെ ആയപ്പോൾ പൂർത്തിയായി Vaaranam aayiram 144p confirmed 😂). 2019, No job, completely depressed. I joined a offline web development course at an organization in feb 2020. To my bad, lockdown was initiated just 4weeks after i joined the course, due to covid outbreak. Everything was in a confused state. Then they shifted to online mode which was ineffective for me back then. And hence i couldn't grab a job through them also. In the meanwhile i was also clearing my arrears. 2021 May was my last chance in clearing off my arrears. I cleared all except one. I was not knowing what to do. But due to this pandemic, the university decided to give a 1 year extension as mercy chance to every student, beyond the stipulated 6 years. Hence after a long rollercoaster ride of 7 years, I passed my last papper in 2022 june. I got my certificates 2 months later, Wherein my passing year is 2022 June with a 7.09 CGPA. The BLUNDER ============ Then, my ചാക്കോ മാഷ് (my father) suggested me to get into a govt job ( fresh... fresheyyy... 😅) and since i was a Kendriya Vidyalaya product (we are weak in Malayalam, not proud about it though. Please make sure u are proficient in your mother tongue Otherwise u will suffer & face embarrassment throughout your life), i decided PSC wouldn't work out for me and I decided SSC is my ground. I joined an institute at Kottayam in 2022 July, stayed at a hostel there, and studied. I was really motivated and studied. started attempting exams and cracked prelims of a few. But those were not suitable for me ( CPO {Central Police Organization}, Stenographer, Constable GD). Iam more of a soft and emotional, introverted person(അയ്യൊ പാവം) also i was not skilled in stenography. So i abandoned those & continued with my prep. But even after multiple attempts, i couldn't make it to any other exams. The Harsh Reality of an exam like CGL is that vacancy is 8000(say), applicants will be 30-40lakhs, 17-19 lakhs writes the exam & number of shortlisted candidates in prelims will 8 times or 10 times the vacancy. ie 80000(here) and 8000 from this gets selected after the Mains exam. That is 8000/4000000 is just 0.2 percent is only selected. So 2years went in preparation. REALISATION =========== And after two years in 2024, I'm 27 (unemployed, 2 പിള്ളേരുടെ അമ്മാവൻ , just like u see in some movie), I realised that getting a job in the IT sector is much feasible, achievable and rewarding than cracking a competitive exam. (If i had listened to my കവിയൂർ പൊന്നമ്മ at home (my mother), I would have been working in some company right now. Instead i listened to my ചാക്കോ മാഷ് at home who insisted to get a govt job. I never had a goal in life. I just went with the flow. ) So now i am utilising all the latest free material available on YouTube to learn web development. I have just started, and i know i can do it. Now i am learning frontend technologies, also Python as a programming language. I don't know whether to choose Python Django full stack Or MERN stack. Anyways i have decided to learn front end along with React, and make some projects and start applying for interviews via linkedin, Indeed etc. And then extend to a full stack meanwhile. Guidance: ======== Please guide me with your suggestions on what steps i should take to landup in a job, 1. Wait, will i get a job at the first place ??? 2.What salary can i expect?( anywhere between 10-20k is possible?) 3.what is my career gap? Is it 2years(2022-2024) or 5 years(2019-2024)?? 4. I don't aim any big companies( I know they wouldn't care either 😅) I JUST NEED TO GET INTO A JOB, gain experience and then improve upon myself. Is it possible to get into some startups where they value skill?? 5. Is it possible to bring a smile on my parents face? (I have failed them badly, an utter disappointment ) 6.How to get out of depression and low feel about oneself ?? (Life after college, from 2019 to 2024 was hell and it still continues. I act like i am okay, but i am burning at the inside. After watching VAAZHA movie on ott, reality hit me, I burst into tears in front of my parents and literally cried non stop for some 20 mins bcz i could connect to the emotional & embarrassing situations shown in the film, I asked their forgiveness because i failed them as a son. Literally മോങ്ങി മോങ്ങി ജലദോഷം ആയി last) This is very personal. Please guide me with your suggestions on what steps i should take to landup in a job in web development 🙏🏽. Thanks in advance. I am Btech CS 2022 passout CGPA :7.09 Kochi resident. Learning HTML, CSS,JS+ REACT Will shift to Either MERN OR Python Django stack afterwards. Resume as of now has nothing commentable.( I am working on it) P. S: sorry for the long post.