So Fucked

(18F) Y’all I scored 80 percentile in jan first attempt (very very very less than my potential) I’ve not given my best and I deeply regret every second of it (first day first show tha🤡) Me and my parents are hoping for second attempt but it’s sad the way they are being too supportive and have faith in me that I have crushed it.. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I FAILED YET IM UNABLE TO BEAT MY ASS TO GET STUDYING,YET IM SLEEPING FUCKING 10hours and upar these prefinals and boards (state board so manageable), being a 10th topper school first and 11th college topper (4th in the state) I’m so upset, help me, I want to study in IIT, I want to make my parents happy.. (I’ve obc category and maths is my strongest subject ,98 percentile )