My mum's crying...

I was studying and my mum's friend called her, my mum is now standing outside door its very quite and I can hear everything. Shes crying I feel horrible I think she's having some trouble in her office. I haven't given her enough to be proud of me from last two years I am feeling so freaking horrible. I am literally getting marks under 50. She told me once that she is going to leave her job after I get into good clg this year but I don't think I can with this marks I feel so fucking horrible, pathetic. I am sorry, I feel so sorry for her I wish she had better daughter a better husband overall just better family. Fuck yrr what am I doing with my life fuck. Sorry, the flair is irrelevant