MY LIFE FEELS DUSTED FOR SURE!!!

My life's graph has gone worse than the strong electrolyte's molar conductivity curve in terms of concentration. Things were good before lockdown, I say that. Then lockdown, then phone, then squandering time, then cussing ownself for the wastage, then more time wasted, then 10th boards. (I got 95.4%) Then the curve went so downhill that even the S series won't pick it up. 11th-12th Schooling-JEE, Hostel life, everything done and dusted. I figured I got worse at academics, at curricular stuff, lacked an achievable performance in any sport, nothing good, not even my articulation remained the way it was. From A Shinchan like fella to a shy, introverted guy who won't budge in a word without seeking permission. Nil confidence seeps within me. I am ignored by my batchmates more than we ignore Surface Chemistry. And with all this, I find no reason to get consistent in my chore. I once was good at things, but now, NO! And even I am in the pursuit of happiness, achieving the better me, the darkness of depression overshadows all. I am just in a turmoil concluding nowhere. JUST A RANT! tl;dr