I wanna give up

Hindi 1st language nhi hai so please samaih lena thoda. Dropper hu West Bengal sei. last year 84 percentile ayi thi. IIIT Kalyani mila tha but fees jyada hone ke reason nhi le paya tha. October mei drop liva tha. I was trying my best. November mei papa ki death ho gyi. Uske bad pura dimaag chud gya hai. April mei try karunga please guide me. I have completed whole 12 board level and 11th essential topics. Please help me.