Clown me all you want… but please be brutally honest with the advice

A month + 3 days left to jee ... have absolute 0 prep... wasted 11th and dropped out of coaching as I was severely depressed with many other things. 12th I tried to focus on boards but yeah as I am an NRI which is my only hope. If I could possibly get 92%ile then maybe I could get into an NIT, is it even possible? 92 in a months prep for Jan attempt ? Boards is also not going any better tbh I really such balls at chemistry and I have to pretty much redo the whole 12th chem. So yeah to all you ppl locked in for jee, is it even worth trying for anymore ? Or do I just stick to boards bcz a part of me thinks I will really shit on in boards if I lock in for jee now please drop some advice 🙏🏻