Leaving prep for jee. Praying mhtcet

Sorry for long post but it's important... Being too tensed about Maharashtra boards and jee being very near (1. Both are near and 2nd meaning they both have around 10 days gap only). I have fucked up chemistry since our teacher didn't take the jee batchm Only took boards batches. I was the one mad man who had some faith in him doing his lectures and even I was the shit one who doesn't leave his batch even after starting the syllabus 6 months after whatsoever. I didn't understand anything but Just kept believing in him that one day he would make me a chem beast. Rather the opposite even he didn't take too much atleast board practice questions and tests. I'm failing that even having 6 months I had not the courage of watching online lectures due to not getting time and just solving physics and maths even that is a problem since I ve not completed the dpps fully. I feel ashamed of myself. After that the parents are great but they are just bombarding about board exams only now that you study now. The past 1.5 years they were quiet as pinch drop silence not even said a thing. I'm feeling horrible doing tp on YouTube and not solving dpps of physics and maths. I'm feeling I might me failing as a aspirant. Please tell how to do chem in this time. I don't think I'm gonna complete chem before jee hence I'm just dropping it's prep and focus on MHT CET.