CONFUSED asf rn

I started my jee prep in 11th online with my 2 friends(we couldn't afford offline) everything was good i was getting 170-180 in mock tests. In 11th finals i got 83% this made my parents pretty sad and scared. they were not in favour of my low school marks bcz of JEE prep. 12th started n and i continued my prep tho my marks also went on decreasing , after 1.5yr my parents finally said to quit all and focus on boards as my %age dropped to 75% and i did that , for last 4 months ive not touched anything related to JEE. As 4 now my Preboards 2 is gonna be 15Jan-25Jan and i got my JEE on 22Jan II SHIFT , we 3 friends have always be toppers , one of them is really smart so im sure he'd make it and other not so smart but a hard worker so I think he might clear Mains. As for me who just focused on boards bcz i can't look at my parents sad faces cuz for them im more like a symbol of pride also a single child so they can't afford to see my downfall(theyre not so educated 4 them Boards is evrythg)(TBH i dont care abt IITs/NITs i chose JEE bcz i knew my parent can't afford so high fees but in IIT/NIT id be given Fee Waiver as being from SC)So what i do just focus on boards as told and give Mains1 unprepared and go for 2nd attempt in April and then a drop prob?