Probably fucked up drinking with colleagues

I know I shouldn't have ordered the first drink. And then the second. What was I even thinking. With colleagues. Fuck. I probably made a fool of myself talking about stupid personal stuff. For which I'm going to be judged. And why was that one particular who I know is mean, and is interested in another colleague started looking handsome. So eww. Sober me wouldn't have considered him more than a male colleague (single). And tonight he looked smart and intelligent? Like my kind? Fuck. I shouldn't have had that first cider. And then the second. I don't know how I'm going to face all of them tomorrow. I'M NOT GONNA SOVIALISE WITH COLLEAGUES ANYMORE.