Plz guide me ?

I dropped out of my second year of intermediate five years ago due to my father's death and financial problems (I know it's not an excuse). Last night, I cried the whole night, feeling stuck in life. I can't get any job, so I want to complete my education as fast as possible to improve my chances. Can anyone advise me on what to do now? Am I screwed for life? 1. Can I continue my second year of intermediate after a five-year gap? 2. If yes, can I do it through open schooling or something similar? To be clear, I did spend my time learning about computer architecture and networking and earned a few certifications, including CCNA, MCSE, and CEH. But all of this feels useless without a formal education. I don't know what to do. Please help me.