I am hanging my gloves.

I graduated from a Tier 3 college. Managed to get a Good GPA. A good GRE score 322. I had a lot of open source contributions and stuff. I wrote two draft research papers that I never published. I got into a top 20 US school for MS in CS. 10 Years ago. I worked at a famous Fintech company then a famous networking hardware manufacturing company then a famous processor company and then the most notorious FAANG company. I have always been a Mid level developer. It was a combination of lack of social skills. Constant job hoping. And generally being surrounded by exceptional engineers which made the work environment cutthroat. In one of the team where I worked at, there were two CMU Electrical Engineers in my teams. I had recurring thoughts of suicide working with them. They would berate me incessantly. I almost had no friends in the last 10 years. Loneliness greatly reduces your problem solving ability. My thinking is also different from most of the people I noticed, which made it very very hard to survive in my job. Last week my manager told me that I am not meeting the expectations of a Mid level developer. In normal companies it wouldn't be a big deal. But in this shitty company means, that I will be out of my job in 3 months. At this point I am not going to seek re-employment. I am 33 years old. I have an apartment in Hyderabad. I have 1.25M USD in savings. Post taxes that is 9.5 Crores. I estimated my monthly expenses to be around 50K to 60K. I am going to just sit in my apartment play video games. And await death.