Feeling like shit

So yesterday night, my parents went to a relative’s wedding, and I was home alone. I was hyped—finally, some alone time. Did I do something productive? Nope. I went full degen mode. First, I let my intrusive thoughts win and double-nutted like a goddamn fool. Felt great for about five minutes. Then the hunger hit, and instead of making something decent, I went on Zomato and ordered an insane amount of Chinese food and chicken. Absolutely inhaled it. But wait, it gets worse. I also decided, for some reason, that this was the perfect time to try beer. Never drank before, but I thought, "Hey, people love this stuff, right? One beer should be enough for me to experience euphoria!" Spoiler alert: No euphoria, no fun, just regret. It tasted like carbonated piss, and I felt nothing. How do people even get addicted to this? I genuinely don’t get it. Fast forward to this morning: I feel like absolute garbage. My body hates me. My brain hates me. My soul has left the chat. I should’ve just gone to sleep early like a responsible adult, but nooo, I had to act like a raccoon in a 24-hour convenience store. How do I get over this feeling pls help I have tried everything coffee, lemon ginger tea I have to give a presentation today evening a 5