i feared kali as a child but i think she saved me

maa kali is a mother wrath in its strongest, most horrific form. for the longest time i thought i would never ever be able to relate to that suffering, i would never be good enough for kali. but there was something else in my subconscious. i was afraid of my own moms wrath, and i felt it being projected from my mind to the image of kali and i was fearful. but as time grew, i become more afflicted with her. i began to pray to durga because i was scared i wasn’t pure enough for kali. and i mediated and chanted one mantra and when my mother lashed out at me, i felt…..safe within myself. i felt her words didn’t hurt me like knives but like i was shield. though i could still feel the impact, i wasn’t deeply hurt that day. i pray God will one day bless my mothers rage to be calmed, because God knows how much i’ve tried, but i truly believed that day Kali defended me.