How do you console yourself and what rituals do you do when you want to give up in life?

My mental health is feeling so bad and I genuinely don’t want to continue living anymore but I am not going to hurt myself. What do I read and what do I listen to help myself and my family is this difficult time? We are going through lots of money problems and family issues. I try to listen to Shiva Sahasranaam and Vishnu Sahasranaam. Try to read passages from Bhagvad Gita. But I feel like God has left me alone or something. I don’t feel any pressure or any Shakti around me that is helping me or guiding me or protecting me or comforting me. Whenever we shift to a new house, we find a graveyard or something near our homes as well.