I’m feeling like a clown for loving that pilot

So now you guys are already familiar with what he did to me, lemme tell you why am I feeling too much? This guy was the first guy who made me feel safe! And whenever I met him I used to just hug him tightly cuz he made me feel safe, one time he fell asleep after a great session, we were cuddling I woke up from my nap but he was still napping while hugging me tightly. I looked at him and I felt like aww this man is innocent like a kid but at the same time so mature like a gentleman, so I kissed him on a cheek gave him a forehead massage and put a blanked over us (thand thi bhai) at that silly moment I knew that I’m falling for this man. I was in love finally I felt like my heart still had the capacity to feel loved and give love. Till he opened his eyes and told me the truth. He told me that a month ago he went on a date with someone else. Yes he decided to tell me this after making out with me. I was so sad after hearing this. Each and every piece of my heart shattered into pieces. I stood strong and did not fight I left that place without saying anything. Later I got to know that he lied to me about his age just because he wanted to have some fun with me and dated me. I told him everything about the things that I don’t like and he did those things only. I’m still a kid at heart and never been cheated before, this was not even cheating this was something else that I’m not able to process. The feeling of him still flirting with so many girls as I write this post is making me feel so uneasy. I was in love with him after that cute nap and he started flirting with so many girls in front of me. Tell me guys abb kya karu? koi mummy k jese daant laga sakta hain pls? Ese loko ko pechan k na baat karne k liye. When I confronted him on call he blocked me. You should take a look at his comments section, the way he flirts is just tells that he had so much practice in breaking innocent hearts like mine. Now I’m even scared of the idea of talking to a guy, I was such a happy kid, but look at what he has done to me. I need my IT girl energy back guys, all the cutie people please help me in getting my IT girl energy back. I didn’t know loving someone would cause this much pain. Nai hu main yaar vo cheater types ladki if a guy is being nice to me and I’m having so many of my firsts with him I need to keep that guy around me, I want to be touched by him only. I want to laugh at his jokes only, I want to make him feel like he’s the best and want to do so many nice things for him. But I did not know k ese ho jaega and I’ll have to come to Reddit to heal myself! Remedies will be welcomed in the comments section guys! I had one relationship before this one and it ended on such a mature note. I was the IT girl of my University and used to throw so many parties but now I’ve stopped meeting new people only I was such a happy kid look what he has done to me. He’s from Gurgaon only so Gurgaon people please be aware of such people!