I am open to relationship....

Ahhh..... How to explain but see guys I will explain myself I am almost 21.... I last talked to a girl properly was in school before lockdown 11th 12th gon during lockdown 1year drop then directly here... I don't know why but since then I can't maintain eye contact with people and girls its even more... It's hard to find someone in college I have seen lot of people have girlfriend they talk all lovey dovey..... My yt and Insta feed is depressing me nowadays....I feel like I have no one except my mom who cares about me......