Stuck in a complicated marriage

Hey... Am 25f recently got married in oct with my cousin 27m ... (kindly don't judge we are muslim) So it was an arranged mrg n we were not at all close it was always hi/bye kinda thing. So I did masters in CS n working as a software developer, since I was 23 my parents were looking mrg proposals for me but somehow proposals didn't workout for different reasons So my cousin who did intermediate n works in UAE was like a last option according to my parents. N my parents sent the proposal they accepted it n demanded 5lc cash n 100gms gold Now after mrg we even went to honeymoon (manali) but the connection was never there we were like two co travelers n just after a month of mrg he went to UAE n the connection was never build n in all of this my MIL started taunting me that she never liked me as her DIL n even told that she accepted this mrg just for the 5lc n 100gms of gold n she wanted me to go to UAE n work there n buy a house on her name N when had an argument over a petty things she outright threw me out of the house n told very spiteful things n when my parents took me back to their house my husband was infact arguing with me n my parents claiming that whatever happened n said it was not done by him but his mother so he's demanding me to go back to my in-laws house n will cut all the connections with me if I don't go back. I seriously don't know what to do Points to be considered: 1. Many of you will think what was the hurry to marry when I was just 25 but I come from a family n culture where woman get married in their late teens itself to 22 of age, my mrg is considered late mrg 2. Honestly even I want to come out of this mrg but am HELL scared what will happend after I divorce n my parents are okay with me divorcing but they want me to take a break n get married again don't think I will ever be mentally ready for an arranged mrg atleast.