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Emasculated because I got spat on
TLDR - please skip People who think I am karma farming - please skip I am 27M, working in a BPO in Pune. I was coming back from office. There was a bike & a truck - decent amount of space between them & I decided to overtake both vehicles at arounf 55-60 kmph. One of the guys on the bike spat paan masala on me - not intentionally but still. I slowed down & confronted while both bikes were still in motion. I asked them what happened, is this something you should do, lets go to the police station. I even went around the back of their bike to make a mental note of the number plate but later on I just rode away. Initially the guy said sorry but later on made it sound like a favor that he said sorry to me. My 1 month old bike has red color spots on the left side. I need to wake up early tomorrow & get it washed first thing. My white shirt's left sleeve has spots on it now. My blue jean's left leg has the most damage. Heck my Casio Edifice also had 1 spot on it. I mean what the actualy f\*ck. I had seen a YouTube video of a random motovlogger who had made a similar video. I used to think such videos are fake, just for views but today I was shocked. I am feeling like a loser. A man who could not do anything for himself. When I narrated this to my mom, she said police would do nothing, infact they would accuse me of something. Physical violence is never an option. I asked her what woould her reaction have been - she said apart from shouting at them nothing else could have been done. A bit about my self - I am an introvert. I weigh 92 kg, skinny fat, lame hair, below average skin, below average looks. However, I was still hopeful that I will meet a good woman for marriage. I was practicing a kind of manifestation for the same. With today's event happening, it triggered a question in my mind. The question is if I cannot do anything for myself, how the f\*ck am I supposed to protect my would be wife if this were to happen or even if something worse were to happen like a man or gang of men attacking her or worse? My dad is no more, no property from his side. I live my maternal grand parents in their house. I earn 30k p.m. My mom had medical expenses worth 10-12k p.m. It also makes me think that if I get married, how am I supposed to take care of everything? Women earning & working is fine but as all men would agree with me - if the man cannot earn enough - respect for that man is lost. Some more perspective - I have to share a room & even a bed with my mother since the house is quite cramped up & forget a room I don't even have my own bed. Moving out is not possible as I need to ensure that I contribut to mother's medical expenses & in future home expenses (currently grand father's pension is keeping us afloat). How am I supposed to even think that I can get a wife with all this shit in my life? Neither would I be able to provide for her, nor will I be able to protect her in adverse situations. Also, I used to belong to that category of people who used to believe that India is amazing, we should work for the country, contribute in making it better, etc. I used to slam rich peeps who would sned their children abroad while talking about making India great. But today I realised that basic civic sense will probably never ever be instilled in the majority of the population. I am not looking for sympathy, validation or even advise. Call this a rant or just another lengthy post on Reddit that you will just scroll past or even downvote. But it is what it is. I am just tired. I really wish there is enough money for my mom so that she can live peacefully until she is alive & one night I go to sleep & never wake up.4
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